“Recovery was NEVER a word in my vocabulary, because I never thought it was possible. I never thought I’d be able to live my life behavior free, or ever feel like I belonged or deserved anything. That all changed these past two years.” – Maddy
It was not a bad slip, by any means, but I am now taking time to reflect on why I slipped and what I can do to recognize it and correct it. So much is different than before! I have been doing considerably well with everything since I left treatment. I have been eating new and different foods, keeping them down, taking my medications as directed, talking about problems when they arise, quit drinking, and feeling more secure in who I am as a person. I am not 100% perfect with behaviors, but I have been doing my best to stay on track and I can count on one hand the times I’ve had behaviors since treatment!!!
I am, as always, thankful for everything the staff at EDCare has done for me. I can wake up in the morning excited for the day, instead of being full of dread, fear, doubt, and shame. I can eat out, talk to new people, get things done, not live in fear of mealtimes, but now actually look forward to preparing them. I think the last 4 months have been the most productive months for me in the past 6 years. I cannot thank you enough for helping me through all of my baggage – I look back at how I behaved in treatment sometimes and cringe at how emotional I was – but I know that those feelings needed to come out in order for me to know they were there. I just wanted to let you know how thankful I am to be alive, healthy, and yes – very, very happy. You all helped save my life and put me on track. I am blessed to be healthy and I now love my curves!” – Kelsey
“Here is the quick and direct version! If you are reading this don’t waste another day in embarrassment, guilt, shame and pain. Make the first step in getting better and call EDCare.” -Paul
After searching for 2 weeks and visiting other facilities that she found totally unacceptable, we found EDCare and our daughter immediately admitted herself into the Partial Hospitalization Program. It was the longest 2 weeks I will ever endure. I don’t know who we would have turned to at that time had we not had this facility available to us. We were desperate for someone to understand, we were emotionally drained, and very uneducated in the field of eating disorders. We blamed ourselves. The 3 of us gained knowledge from weekly family counseling, but the best part was the 3 hour, Saturday, multi-family therapy sessions given by a different therapist each week. It was comforting to find common ground with families experiencing the same frustrations and emotions that we were having, listening to each other’s stories, becoming educated, and mainly supporting each other.
My daughter was ready for help and attended a grueling schedule without complaint. It was tough, but she loved the non-hospital like environment, the fact she could come home at night, the therapists and nutritionist, and the interaction of women suffering from her same disease. She was there 2 months before she went back to college for intersession. Of course, she is not cured, but she is better than 1 year ago and has been given the tools to cope with and hopefully be rid of this insidious disease. I was so impressed that the clinic researched her college town for a therapist and nutritionist for continued counseling. It scares me to think where she might be today without the help of EDCare. They may have saved her life!” – Denise, a mother
I was struggling with demons from the past that I had never dealt with before and that was what truly eating me up inside. With the help of those at EDCare, including my therapists, the nutritionists, and milieu, I learned that it is not about the numbers, but instead, how I FEEL inside that matters.
It was extremely hard for me to get rid of the notion that what was read on the scale didn’t matter, however, in my case, it did. I was amazingly sick and on a lot of medications just so that my body did not give up on me.
I was able to trend down in weight, but more importantly, I learned how to eat healthy, handle emotions and confrontations in a more productive manner, and learned that food was merely a tool to help keep me going. Once I learned these things, it was like I was set free.
I was at EDCare for approximately three months and in those three months, I experienced greater healing than I had in the past 25 years of outpatient, inpatient, group and individual therapies.
Now, I have been released from EDCare for about three months and I and my therapist would agree that I keep growing. I am feeling confident about myself and my achievements for the first time in my life. I feel beautiful and alive! That is saying a lot! The staff at EDCare helped me to resuscitate my own life!
Most importantly, since leaving EDCare I am now off approximately 15 medications. My diabetes has been reversed! I no longer have high blood pressure, osteopenia, high cholesterol, but most of all I feel healthier.
I also gained something huge! I was disabled due to my health conditions for several years before walking through the doors of EDCare. Now, I am healthy enough both mentally and physically to work full time! I was not sure if that would ever happen.
I want to thank everyone at EDCare for encouraging me when I didn’t believe in myself. Sometimes, you scooped me off of the floor and stood me up again and I will never forget that. To this day, I still think of the staff cheering me on when I am facing difficult moments.
Everyone at EDCare, helped me get my life back, one I never thought I had, and for that there are not enough words to thank you. You cannot put a price on happiness and loving yourself!”
but I still have far to go on the road to recovery.
I am nowhere near perfection, and wouldn’t claim to be,
but I have grown in every direction, as far as I can see.
I have dreams for the future that were not there before,
aspirations I can reach for – even those among the stars.
I am fighting for my kids, for an abundant life together,
where games, trampolines, and snuggles are always there and regular.
I am fighting for my husband, for the love we openly share,
and deepening our relationship, growing in our care.
I am stepping nearer my Heavenly Father, embracing the love He gives,
accepting He made me, just as I am, and created me just to be me.
My friends here have taught me so much more than they can know,
affirmations and feedback – both have helped me to grow.
Hearing I’m loving and caring and sweet,
sensitive, compassionate and outright great,
has boosted my confidence, despite my reluctance,
to believe and accept I’m becoming more like me.
I wish every one of you could see how beautiful you are,
how your hearts shine through your armour, shining bright as stars.
I wish I could help you realize all your hopes and dreams,
help you fight that demon within you who has your binded up in reigns.
But it’s the fight that makes you stronger, and I can’t deny you that
because my dream for you is freedom in this life and in your heart.
My hope for you is laughter, joy that wells from deep within.
My hope for you is peace, serenity coating all the din.
I hope your dreams come true and you learn to love the real you,
I hope you learn acceptance, grown in confidence, don’t feel blue.
I’m trying every day to enrich and love my tree,
and each day I’m growing closer to loving the real me.”